Very few people at the library dressed for Halloween, and I'm not surprised. Mostly it was people lower on the totem pole: shelvers, clerks. But every workplace must have a female employee in a position of some level of authority who dresses as a witch, and we had that; we had the gay man wearing a bandanna and calling himself a pirate, and someone in sweatpants claiming to be a baseball player. Right.

I think seasonal malaise is setting in. I'm very restless, talk incessantly about joining Weight Watchers and cutting my hair, etc etc. I'm just the same silly, boring girl I always have been. It's not like I expect anything different to happen, or me to behave any differently, if I were to change, so I'm not really sure what this is all about.

I really think what it boils down to is, the person I want to be, if I met her in the hallway at work or saw her on the street, I would make fun of her till I was crying and people glared at me for being too loud. My terrible secret is that I'm a huge dork, as much of a dork as the people in that club in college, who looked like they were Revenge of the Nerds: the Next Generation.

So: revel in my dorkiness, or just try to slide by unnoticed, like I do right now? I don't know.

Current Mood: discontent